Anxiety and depression can take you to a very dark place. I’ve been in such a terrible funk while adjusting to all the major changes in my life for the past year and a half. I don’t handle change well and taking so much on at one time has been draining and exhausting, but ultimately necessary.
I’ve gone MIA on social media, I’ve kept to myself, my mood has been low, I haven’t been active, I haven’t been participating in activities that I love, and overall, I’ve felt completely numb. I knew that I need to change and go back to being my motivated and productive self as soon as possible. It’s time to make a game plan.
Be Selfish: I know this sounds a little crazy, but it’s true. One of my biggest problems lately has been spending all of my time focusing on and worrying about other people who, frankly, do not deserve my time. I’ve learned recently that it is not conceded to make yourself your top priority. As I mentioned, my writing, my editing, my blogging, my relationships, and my health have all suffered because of this and it’s time to change that and make what’s important to ME my top priorities.
Sleep: When I don’t sleep well, I’m a hot mess. I don’t care if I need to fall asleep at 6 PM. If I’m tired, I’m going to bed! I’ve noticed a huge difference since I haven’t been sleeping well so it’s time to change that.
Workout: When I work up a sweat I feel empowered, happy, and proud! I feel so content when I get my body moving. Plus, I blare my music during my workouts and music always makes me feel better!
Remove negativity: Removing things or people from your life can be one of the hardest things you can possibly do, especially when you care so much, but sometimes it is absolutely necessary if you want to better yourself. I’ve had to make some really hard decisions and walk away from a few situations that were tough to leave, but ultimately just slowed me down. It’s weird how something can make you so incredibly happy and so incredibly sad at the same time. When that happens, it’s time to move on.
Friends & Family: Over the past few weeks I don’t know where I would be without all the amazing people in my life. My family has been watching out for me and my friends have been giving me the best advice when I need it. It’s important to lean on your support system!
Do What You Love: I mentioned that I haven’t been doing any of the things that I enjoy and it’s time for that to change. No matter what you love to do, go do it and cherish the times where you just get to do the things that make you happy! I’m going to go back to working out, reading books, writing my next book, watching movies, listening to music, going out with friends, and having fun!
Practice Patience: I am probably the least patient person you’ll ever meet. It’s a terrible flaw of mine. My anxiety and worry always leads to me getting very worked up and impatient. I’ve had to remind myself quite a bit lately that everything works itself out in time and that God has a plan for my life. I have a purpose and one day, I’ll find it. I might find it tomorrow or 25 years down the road, but I’ll get there.
Let Go: Once you remove the negativity from your life, you have to move on from it. This is by far the most difficult thing to do, but I do believe it’s the most important. It’s time to let go of the past and know that a new, amazing chapter is waiting for me.